time travels

i wrote this about a friend of mine who passed away several months ago of a drug overdose. i know i'm not a writer, but somehow it felt very cathartic to put this down on paper. this is the first in a series of 4 poems. i miss you, tripp.

Straining the air for something to hold.

Firm grasps to dead grass

for fear of falling off this earth.

I double down, too far.

Your presence, much bigger than mine, in

size & vibe.

Your vapor, left me with nothing but rooms to fill.

You drove me on & let me down.

Names pout from my mouth like signal flares,

a whispered triad in time with white noises

of sweet fetal sleep in tandem.

Memories mist-drift to that last night. I kissed you.

I showed you my bruises.

You showed me your scars.

Stay with me in that place,

2 battered hearts strung together

with twine & wine-laced pirate cups.

i love you, ya ass. see you on the other side :)

love. sb

love letters

it has been a while... again. 2011 has been the most stressful year of all time, so i haven't really had time to blog.

i never know what to post on this thing & somehow realized that a blog could be an excellent outlet to post my writing... especially since no one ever reads this. i have months worth of writing, so this could take up several posts.

Southbound

lazy afternoons.

slow. moth-eaten/beautiful.

small-town dust & sun.

glazed by the echo

of summer winds floating by,

all peace fades to night.

Beach Music

Claire, Claire,

Claire with the hair

goes to the water to drown,

unafraid of losing all

memories there.

No family of friends to renounce.

As best laid plans

of men oft stray,

Claire finds herself on land.

& as she dries

her mangled mane,

counts her troubles

with every strand.

love. sb

OH MAKE ME OVERRRR

The most wonderful thing happened yesterday! I told everyone that the only thing I wanted for my birthday next Saturday is for my cousin's family to get chosen for Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. & guess what?!?! THEY FOUND OUT THAT THEIR HOUSE WAS PICKED YESTERDAY!!!!!

Their story is an incredible one & I have never known a family more deserving of this kind of blessing! I will give you a little idea of Jim & Carmen's story. Here is the write-up from Extreme Makeover's website:

While there are dozens of good reasons that the Simpsons were chosen, none compare to the amazing story of their 2-year-old son, Zoë. Zoë was born prematurely with a usually deadly condition as well as detached retinas that guaranteed blindness. His doctors told Jim and Carmen he might live 24 hours and if he did survive he would never be able to breathe on his own, see or walk.

But Zoë – which means “abundant life” – beat the prognoses again and again as his eyes healed and his lungs began to work on their own. Surpassing every medical expectation and explanation, Zoë is a thriving 2-year-old. Although he is somewhat developmentally delayed, he continues to grow and develop against all odds.

Zoë is a living medical miracle, and his family’s reaction to his recovery is making miracles happen throughout the Savannah community. The Simpsons are so grateful for Zoë’s recovery that they have dedicated themselves to pay the blessing forward as far and wide and often as possible. They look for ways to serve their community and even keep a family wish list of things they want to do for others in need.

The Simpsons, who moved to Savannah so Zoë would be closer to his doctors, need a home that more fully accommodates their son’s medical needs. Despite the living conditions they have been enduring, the Simpsons have maintained hope and a positive attitude toward life’s challenges.

The Simpson family also includes Isaac, 8, and 4-year-old Katelyn. While their house is rebuilt inside and out, the whole family will vacation in the Bahamas with Disney Cruise Line. Meanwhile, Pennington and designers Paul DiMeo, Tracy Hutson, Ed Sanders, Savannah builder JT Turner Construction and community volunteers will rebuild their home.

As you can see, my family is made up of some very special people! Zoe is doing so well- he can't talk or walk on his own yet, but we are just so happy that he has made it this far! I am very upset that I can't be in Savannah for the build, but my mom & Aunt Julia are headed there tomorrow & promise to take lots of pictures! The Extreme Makeover website is updating every few hours to show progress on the house, so I encourage you to check it out!

The pictures on the website are copywritten, but I promise to update with pictures soon!

love.sb

taxicab confessions

it has definitely been a while since my last post... i guess i just lost track of time. woopsie! to catch you up, i spent the summer slaving away at Best Buy in order to save money for my internships in New York City. i am currently in the Big Apple & loving every minute!

my internships could not be more different from one another, but i am learning so much & gaining a lot of exposure within the fashion industry! on Mondays & Tuesdays, i work as a public relations intern at Elie Tahari- let me tell you, those people are hard core! i never realized what a huge company Elie Tahari has become. they have lines for womens wear, mens wear, jewelry, handbags, & they just released a line of shoes (they are beautiful! but not in stores yet... sorry, ladies! you'll have to wait until Spring 2011)! essentially, my days at Elie Tahari consist of photoshopping mockups of press clippings, running samples back & forth to the Conde Nast building (Conde Nast is the company that owns Vogue), organizing binders & magazines, & combing through blogs to find mentions of the label for our press book. the VP of PR, Scott Currie, could not be a sweeter man! & Leah Jacobson, the PR Director, is my immediate supervisor- she really encourages me to learn as much as i can & i appreciate her guidance. but through the chain of command, i usually report to Hillary Beulah, the PR Coordinator. i am convinced that Hillary has the most stressful job on the planet & she handles it with so much poise! even with everyone yelling at her & pulling her in different directions, she manages to keep her wits about her each day. & she always has a smile on her face! i usually leave Elie Tahari very exhausted, but definitely much better at my job. oh & yes, i have gotten to meet Elie Tahari himself! i had a minor panic attack shortly after! he's a BIG deal.

on Wednesdays, Thursdays, & Fridays, i work at Patterson J. Kincaid as a sales intern. i could not love this internship more than i do!!! i love the other interns there, i love the clothes we sell, i love the people i work for, & i love that everyone has such a laid back attitude. i could definitely see myself working in sales at a smaller company like Patterson. the company, L'Koral, owns Elizabeth & James, Patterson J. Kincaid (obviously), Steve Madden, & develops juniors lines for Target & JCPenney. my days at Patterson are spent doing a lot of different stuff each day- i send out samples to major department stores like Neiman Marcus, Bloomingdales, & Saks; i correspond with buyers from various boutiques around the world via email; i upload pictures of our merchandise onto our website & put the necessary captions underneath; i organize the sample closet (not an easy task); i order supplies when we need them; i merchandise Patterson's area of the sales floor at Bloomingdales, Intermix, & Wink; i edit photo linesheets; & i organize the showroom whenever Jill has an appointment! oh yeah, Jill Schneider is my supervisor- she's the best. she is the Head of Sales for Patterson J. Kincaid. other people i interact with a lot are Lindsey, the Production Coordinator, & Jillian... i am still not completely sure what Jillian's title is, but i will figure it out & get back to you! this saturday, Patterson J. Kincaid, Elizabeth & James, & LaROK are having a sample sale, so i've been spending most of my time this week helping prepare for that.

obviously, i am working a LOT! but my roommates, Ali & Jess, & i have still managed to get out for a little fun! we've gone out for drinks, shopped in SoHo, watched the Alabama games at the Ainsworth, & eaten a lot! also, i have gotten to visit some old friends in New Jersey for Halloween- everyone did their GTL! this weekend, the roomies & i plan to walk the Brooklyn Bridge & i am SO excited! that is one thing in NYC that i have never done. well, i must depart, but it would not be a sara blog post without a snapshot or 2! so i'll leave you on an entertaining note & share the few pictures i've accumulated so far:

the view from outside my bedroom window... eat your heart out :)

a bunch of my fashion retail gals at Brother Jimmy's

not the best picture of me, but the only one where you could see everyone! out at the Spotted Pig, where we saw Scott Dissick!

my beautiful city

from my midtown apartment, i send all of my love.

love. sb

rite of spring

in the spirit of my favorite season, i have been hitting the elliptical like it's my job!!! at this point, i would be entirely too embarrassed to expose myself in my shower, much less on a public beach. but nevertheless, i have already been bikini shopping in the hopes that, come june, i will be premiering my new hott bod!... perhaps i'm jumping the gun a little, but i like to think of it as good (th)inspiration. nothing gets me in the mood to workout like a skinny girl in a bikini! i've found some seriously adorable swimsuits (Target has great ones on the cheap & as always Roberto Cavalli has developed some seriously gorgeous floral prints)! here are 2 great ones that i found on net-a-porter:

bandeau bikini by Milly

La Perla's peacock feather bikini

searching through websites for the perfect bikini has gotten me SO EXCITED about summer!!! no school, beach vacations & sunshineeeee... my faves. since i'm not really in a writing mood, here are a few snapshots from last summer's adventures:

hello, South Beach! you're lookin' fine...

just out with my bests

i went to the wheelchair basketball games at the Lakeshore Foundation! SO fun!

jenn & i at christy's pool party

well warm weather wishes, bloggerverse! i'm going to the gym.

love.sb

.b e l u g a . h e i g h t s.

i've always been fascinated by people who enjoy camping. as a southern suburbanite, i have to say i don't see the appeal of dwelling inside of what is basically just a tarp for days on end- no bathroom, no kitchen, & (my least favorite part) no where to plug in my HAIR STRAIGHTENER!!! die...

but mostly, the idea of camping freaks me out because i am deathly afraid of the woods. & apparently i'm not the only one! the forest has been a subject wrought with mystery for all of recorded history. it is land dense with vegetation, naturally designed with plenty of places to hide. you will be hard-pressed to find two people who agree on the symbolic implications of the woods, but there is definitely an aura of spirituality attached (another thing i've never been very comfortable with). in Alabama, where i'm from, the woods are commonly referred to as "God's Country;" however, while Thoreau went into the woods to find himself, Nathaniel Hawthorne sent his Young Goodman Brown into the woods to lose his soul. perhaps the mystery within the forest lies in the fact that it is ungovernable territory. there can be no law in nature; riotous chaos flourishes amongst the trees that shadow our earth.

when i was about 8 years old, i decided to go exploring in the woods beside my family's house. & well, it wasn't REALLY what you would call a "forest," just a section of trees separating my neighborhood from the adjacent apartment complex, but it was as close to the great outdoors as you could get in Vestavia Hills. anyway, i set out on my journey at around 3 in the afternoon & must have just lost track of time, because before i knew it the sun was setting! i had probably ventured a little over a mile into the trees & i was completely lost- everything looked the same, no landmarks, no people. as a child, i was fearless & being stuck in the woods for a few hours didn't scare me at all; however, after a long while of walking around, i heard people calling my name. apparently my parents freaked out when i didn't come home after an hour or so & sent a search party (made up of our neighbors & my father's assistant) to find me. when i got home, i was harshly reprimanded for scaring the crap out of everyone & warned to never step foot into the woods again. they didn't have to tell me twice! after being in the woods for what seemed like an eternity, i was more than willing to forego any further relations with Mother Nature.

i didn't have a spiritual experience through my encounter in the woods that day, more an unbridled curiosity about the power that lies within the growth, the place that lends me breath & shade & room to run. i feel connected to the woods, as i'm sure is a distinctly human condition. & although i probably will not be seen rustlin' up some grub at the camp site, or whatever it is you do when you're out there, i feel quite sure of the fact that my respect for that space will not diminish...

& who knows! i did buy myself a hammock the other day! anything's possible.

love.sb

m u s e d

i was recently studying the designer label Marchesa for a project about NY Fashion Week. it fascinated me that this entire line was inspired by a turn of the century European fashion icon. apparently Marchesa Luisa Casati was the most eccentric, luxurious woman of her time. she wore snakes as jewelry & paraded around town late at night, nude under her furs, with a jaguar on a diamond leash. i'm amazed that this woman is not more renown, because not only did she coin the "smoky eye" (my favorite make-up palette), but she was also the muse to famous writers such as Tennessee Williams, Jack Kerouac, & Ezra Pound. film stars, artists, & wealthy businessmen became enamored with Ms. Casati, who also happened to be the wealthiest heiress in italy.

the point of this entry, i guess, is to spread the word: Marchesa Luisa Casati was the early 19th century's answer to Lady Gaga & she has shaped our culture far beyond what we know...

Marchesa Luisa Casati in one of her elaborate outfits

a close-up of Casati's eye makeup... taken c. 1930

dress from Marchesa's fall 2010 collection as presented at New York's Mercedes Benz Fashion Week

just something to muse on...

love.sb